Dae Hee
Lee

My Difficult Decision

I think making a decision about a future goal or plan is hard. If there is more than one option to choose, people can't be sure which way is suitable for them. I also had this experience twice. It wasn't really easy.

The marriage proposal was my first difficult decision. I met my wife about four years ago. One of my best friends, Kyu, introduced her to me. I thought we had the great time in our first date. She even agreed to have the second date. We started to see eachother, and we were getting closer. When I thought this woman would be person who would spent her whole life with me, my only option was to propose to her. I also had the second thought, "What if she said 'No' to me?" I couldn't decide whether I proposed to her or not. I might not see her anymore if she rejected my proposal. I, however, wanted to be with her rest of my life. I made my mind to propose to her. That night, I called her, and we had a usual conversation like how was her day. She asked me what I thought about the marriage suddenly before I even said about proposal. I thought this is sign to propose. I did it. Did she say No to me? She was pleased to say Yes to me. That was the happiest day of my life. My wife sometimes complained that I should propose to her romantically. She was right but I was very nervous. I coundn't think any romantic way. Anyway, I was glad that I made right choice.

Going to Canada was also very difficult choice. I always wanted to have experience about studying in a foreign country. Also, I wanted to improve my English skill. I soon started to be concerned about my decision to go to Canada. I asked myself if going to Canada was only solution to learn English. I might take English course in Korea. It would cost less money than Canada. I was not alone, and I had a job in Korea. This was very hard decision. But, I chose to go to Canada. I thought this was a chance to get a foreign culture experience. I didn't want to lose this opportunity. My wife was very supportive. She even thought to take ESL course. I'm in Canada now, and I don't regret my decision. I enjoy living in here.

Making a decision is hard. I had this experience twice. I wouldn't be in Canada if I made a choice to come here. I would still be single if I didn't propose to my wife. I could say I was satisfied with my decision.

March 2001